From our front porch looking in...

No pictures, no exciting events to relay...just me. An overworked mama trying to love my kiddos, my husband, my God and my life! Zach is at youth group tonight. He started back this Fall with the high school boys and I know they are being blessed by him. I am home alone with the kids and just put them to sleep...well, in their beds--AWAKE! After I read them both a book, I rocked them for a few minutes (had to because as I was picking Evie up, I hit her head against Beckett's and had 2 crying kids!).

I laid them both down. I can hear Evie on the monitor, "Are you awake?...Helloooo...Are you awake?...Hello...Are you awake?" Hilarious! I don't really care what they are saying, as long as they are in their beds. This may be a turning point in our bedtime routine. Two kids that go down AWAKE at the same time.

I am sitting here thinking about my life and how totally exhausted it makes me--and how nothing in life compares to being a mom! I recently posted "A day in the life of a mom" and I laugh at how that might have scared some non-parent friends (heather :) away from having kids for a few more years!

Sometimes I want to shake them, they frustrate me, they push the buttons, get on the last nerve, irritate, push, hit, disobey. But the beautiful side is most often seen. The moments when they can't get enough of me...(I call it the MOMMY MAGNET) can be endearing. Or when the three of us are walking into Publix...hand in hand. When Beckett wakes up in the middle of the night, I stumble to his room, and as soon as I scoop him into my arms, his little head falls right into the crook of my neck, as if it were made just for him. OHHHHH--such sweetness of life!

That got sappy, quick! see how easy it is to swing on the emotional pendulum of motherhood?!

The kids are still in their beds...I hear incomprehensible sounds every few minutes, but I think I should snag this moment of bliss and sit in the quiet comfort of my living room. Alone.

Ahhhh..............