Tonight I took Evie to Target-she needed some new princess lipgloss from the $$ bin (or as Sarah G calls them, the "Suck-ya-ins!"...actually, I think her husband Tim coined the phrase!). Zach and B stayed home for some boy bonding (really Zach isn't feeling well and I wasn't taking 2 toddlers out after 8:00 by myself...I may be crazy, but I'm not stupid :)
...well, I got her out of the car and walked across the road. Once we got to the sidewalk, I stopped and looked at her-I said, "Do you want me to carry you?" This is never really an option since Beckett is smaller and they usually ride. Come to think of it, not sure the last time I really carried her. (insert very pooched out, sad mama face here). She said, "No, I can walk." so just like that, she grabbed my hand and started walking.
You know when you have those moments in life? The kind that stop you in your tracks. The kind that bring tears to your eyes...the ones that make you realize you have the most precious gift and you want to freeze time to savor the sweetness, but can't wait for what the future holds because you know its gonna be so good?
well, I had one.
as I held her tiny hand, I remembered that it used to be so much smaller, but still felt so fragile, with a massive need to be protected. I couldn't let it go. I thought about whether or not I would ever really remember what it felt like to feel her sweet, soft fingers in my grasp.
it goes by too fast. way too fast. yes, tears are streaming down my face as I write this...thanking God for the gift of one amazing little girl. a little girl I never deserved and could never do enough for.
oh the moments that take our breathes away...my cup runneth over...
5 comments:
Oh Kristy, I know exactly how you feel! I often gaze into Caroline's sweet face and pray that I never ever forget how she looks and smells and the precious quiet moments we share (though they're becoming much more few and far between). If you find that freeze button, please make sure to tell me where it is! Miss you!
p.s. I got choked up reading your sweet words...call it hormones if you want, but I think its just "Mommy Empathy"! =)
Tears are in my eyes! I agree with Kim... Mommy Empathy. :) I think I have moments like this everyday. Just yesterday, I took Makayla for her school physical. Yes, for her to start kindergarten. I have absolutely no idea how these last 4.5 years have gone by so fast. And Elijah turned 2 a couple of weeks ago. He's our last baby so it was hard to say hello to 2 yet exciting all at the same time.
I'm crying now!!!As you decribe holding her little hand I can almost feel it myself or the way she touches my cheek when she says something loving to me.... Those 'moments' are what make life so wonderful...enjoy each one..childhood goes by much too quickly when you are the Mom...weren't you 3yrs old just yesterday??? love you
And, I'm crying.. thank you for that! :) The moments are so precious. Cori is going to be 12 weeks old tomorrow.. I remember her in my belly like it was yesterday!!
This second pic of her... she looks so big! Sweet words...and I feel ya!
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