From our front porch looking in...

SATURDAY
JANUARY 19, 2008

Its a waiting game!

So...I think that I am finally ready to be the mother of 2 small children! Over the past few weeks, I have been content just hanging out with Evie and enjoying these last few weeks with her alone. But now, the frustration of being "pregnant forever" is setting in and I am feeling the emotional toll of being pregnant.

When I rock Evie to sleep each night, I wonder if this may be the last night I rock her as a mother of one...where she is my only priority, my only baby to take care of...and it makes me hold on a little longer, a little tighter.

I know that I will love this baby in the same, but completely different way and I am excited to feel my heart burst once again with emotions that I never knew existed!!!

My back hurts most nights-don't remember that with Evie. I have contractions all the time and have gotten over even timing any of them. I figure if they get painful enough, it must be time and then I will get down to the nitty gritty timing stuff. I am over nesting...I nest, then rest, and nest some more. I even cleaned the counters and computers at work. I believe it when they tell you that no one can predict when labor will happen!

Last night, I cried for the first time as I was overwhelmed with the emotions of carrying this little creature. I know have a few weeks left before I am supposed to be due, but its these last couple of weeks that wear you down the most. I try not to think about it and distract myself, but I can only go to Target and the mall so often! :)

I think I need a pedicure. I had one at 40 weeks last time and went into labor that night. I have heard about acupuncture working to send people into labor! But how do you get a pedicure with a 14-month-old?!?!

SO our lives have changed...Zach asked me last night if life is a constant change. Seems like from day 1, out lives have been a little tailspin...I think the anwser is yes. But we embrace it for what it is and love every moment God allows us to breathe in the chaos of life! We are blessed beyong measure and are ready for this new change...a beautiful baby boy...or girl...or boy?!?! Only time will tell! (I think its a boy)